Well it is time for my son to go back to school. I had hoped to have a job and be stable so he could start his 1st year at the big school stress free. EPIC FAIL!!! I have no job, not through lack of trying. and with each rejection letter I lose a little more of my self esteem.
I realise this looks like a self indulgent rant but that's how I feel, a pathetic failure as a mother and as a human being. He gets his dinner last because I cannot afford the blazer to sow on the blue ribbon that identifies him as a first year. The basic uniform comprising sweatshirt, trousers and black shoes was supplied by my mother....I now owe her £500, and although she has not said a word about it I feel the disappointment and disapproval in her eyes (this could be my imagination). I am on half rations food wise so that wee man can get a proper dinner so consequently i look like crap as my skin breaks out due to stress and lack of nutrition. I cannot wait to get back to university where I can get something resembling normality, hell the human contact alone makes it sound like bliss.
